If Assholes Could Fly, This Would Be An Airport

You know what?

I'm going to double post.
I've been holding it in, but here we go. You've pushed me and pushed me and now I can't keep it in any longer.

You are such a sack of shit, Sean. No more nicknames for you. Anyone reading this who knows about you is probably nodding their heads in agreement right now, but I was an idiot. I cared about you, so I gave you multiple chances. Every crappy thing you'd ever done I forgave you for because I believed you. I believed in you.

I know I wasn't always the best to be involved with. I get scared easily but I never walked away. That was all you. You're full of such shit. How many times did you call me late at night babbling about how you loved me and wanted to be with me? You talked about having kids with me for Christ's sake.

How could you throw "I love you" around like that? How can it mean nothing to you?

Sometimes I think I can be pretty cold. But the difference between you and I is that my cold heart can thaw out - your problem is that you're heartless. You have nothing there. You pretend you do, but someone who truly cared about someone else couldn't bullshit the way you do.

So now we are done. I have no more forgiveness left for you. I feel weighed down by your betrayal. I know you'll come back eventually and I'm preparing for the moment when you realize what you've done.

We had one big fight. I rarely say this, but it was your fault. Of course I was freaked out by what you'd told me - you purposely said things to scare me. You admitted to that. But as soon as I say I need to go to sleep and think things over, you decide that I no longer matter.

AGAIN I find over facebook that you're dating someone else. Facebook, really? Grow a set already. At least last time you waited a couple days. This time it was less than 24 hours. Did you talk to her late at night, too? Did you tell her the same things you told me? I feel sorry for myself, but I feel more sorry for her. She doesn't know what you're capable of.

You are worthless.

I can't believe I wasted so much feeling and time on you. I will never get those 15 months back, but I won't give you any more of my life. You don't deserve it and I finally see it now.

Screw you. Who do you think you are?

Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.