I'd Like To Go

I'd really like to go on a road trip. Let's go.

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New Condo

Kanye is moving in with his *new girlfriend.

new - a girl he's been hooking up with for 5 weeks, a (clearly) serious relationship

At first I was upset. I get a ''I've been thinking about you lately'' and not 5 minutes later he tells me he's moving in with his new girlfriend. Don't get me wrong - I wasn't upset because it wasn't me moving in with him. In fact, now that he's moving in I won't ever have to worry about falling into another one of his traps. I'm glad he's being taken away. Keep him!

I was upset because he said "I've finally got my life together so we're moving in to her new condo''. I mean, a new condo?! I want a new condo. That bitch.

In all seriousness though, it hurt that he couldn't get his shit together with me but he will put the effort in for this new girl. That's going to sting for anybody. No one wants to feel like they're not good enough. So after I had a bit of a sulk and a pout, I cheerfully mentioned my new relationship. He still hasn't responded. There you go Kanye, suck on that!

Because while you're happy, I'm just as happy - if not happier.

We will call the new boyfriend KCat (thanks to Dino). I've never felt this comfortable with somebody. He makes me feel sexy and sweet. He tells me how smart and funny I am. He makes me love my body and my personality. I can talk to him about anything. It's been almost a month now that we've been dating and I feel great.

My older sister called and gave me The Talk. My mum called her and asked her to do it. Who cares that I'm turning 21 this year and she knows I'm not a virgin.

I meet his parents on the 10th and I'm nervous but very excited. They seem great.

Holy moly. In a relationship. A good one.

That's never really happened before.

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Kiss Me! Even Though I'm Not Irish

These past 2 weeks have been long ones - first with my neuroscience exam, then my human development exam this week. I did super well on both of them so it was time to blow off some steam.

St Patty's was the perfect time and excuse! We stole a table and put it in my room to play beer pong and other drinking games. We got all greened up and started drinking at 6. I was irish shwasted in no time. Overall, it was a great night. I woke up covered in green food dye which is always a good sign.

We just made 130 jello shots for the floor crawl tomorrow, so it should be another good night.
If I survive.

Then on Sunday I have a date with the man :)

More on him later...

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Are You Gonna Kiss Me Or Not?

Are you gonna kiss me or not?
Are we gonna do this or what?
I think you know I like you a lot
But you're about to miss your shot
Are you gonna kiss me or not?


Does anybody else feel a lot of "first kiss" pressure?

I keep chickening out. Date 3 is tomorrow and I need to make it happen. Or he does. Someone does!

I just hate the whole "you have to have your first kiss when he drops you off in his car!" thing..

No. I refuse! I don't want to lean over the console and I don't want to have to twist my body in a weird position. It gives me muscle spasms. Then the light comes on in the car when you open the door so he can see how flustered I am. No!

No. No. No.

I'm not saying I need it to be the most romantic thing ever. Jeeze. I just want him to kiss me. I think I'll like it.





















A lot.

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Love Isn't Silly

You'd think that people would have had enough of silly love songs,
But I look around me and I see it isn't so.
Some people wanna fill the world with silly love songs.
And what's wrong with that?
I'd like to know, 'cause here I go again

Love doesn't come in a minute,
Sometimes it doesn't come at all
I only know that when I'm in it
It isn't silly, love isn't silly, love isn't silly at all.

I'm very excited for my date tomorrow. This could be something :)
The first date went so well, let's see how the second goes!

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Shame On Me

Because when you're twenty and somebody tells you they love you, you're going to believe them.

It's hard not to feel stupid about Sean/Kanye. It's harder not to feel hurt.

I'm pretty good about keeping him out of my head, but sometimes this pang makes my heart ache. I don't miss him, I just feel foolish. I'm one step closer to never thinking about him again. I'll get there.

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You're Impossible To Find

This is not what I intended,
I always swore to you that I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger,
I may have failed you, but I loved you from the start.

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The Time Is Now

“Look at you. You’re young. And you’re scared. Why are you so scared? Stop being paralyzed. Stop swallowing your words. Stop caring what other people think. Wear what you want. Say what you want. Listen to the music you want to listen to. Play it loud as fuck and dance to it. Go out for a drive at midnight and forget that you have school the next day. Stop waiting for Friday. Live now. Do it now. Take risks. Tell secrets. This life is yours.
When are you going to realize that you can do whatever you want?”

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A Slow Death

Statistics is killing me slowly.

I feel my brain turning to mush.

At least I didn't procrastinate studying as badly this time, I did over half the studying when I was at home in Vancouver for reading week. Still, I've taken this whole week off and dedicated it to working out just so that I wouldn't have to study for my midterm tomorrow.

Wish me luck. If I die, you can have my stuff.

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This Aching Heart Ain't Broken Yet

I have a short temper. I'm stubborn and I'm opinionated, and yes, sometimes I will frustrate you so much that you'll want to pack your bags and leave.

But I'm also intelligent and funny, good looking, and loyal. I will make your average day great and every moment better than the last. I will make you change your mind about leaving.

It's your turn to put in the work. I've realized I let guys walk all over me, and for what? It hasn't gotten me anywhere. Chasing you has done nothing but make me more aware of how alone I sometimes feel.

That's over with because I've had an epiphany. I could be that girl you want to write love songs about. I could be that voice on the end of the telephone that you're dying to hear. I could be that hand that fits yours.

All these "coulds" can change into "will be"s, but it's all up to you now.



Your choice. I will be fine either way, because I'll always be that great girl.

It's up to you whether I'm that great girl you passed up, or that great girl you're with.

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